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Today was pretty long. Started off with Special K and 2% milk. Went to Delores' house to get her breakfast and what not. Then came home, took Malcolm out, we went and get lunch, cleaned the car, got the oil changed, mailed a bill, and then came back home. Malcolm was sleeping by this time, so I took him upstairs and came downstairs and folded some laundry. Ate some lunch spicy chicken filet on bagel thin with lettuce and cesar dressing. At 5 I had work, so I got dressed and took off to work. Work was fun as always. I really do love my job for the most part. There are some days that I don't have tons of fun, but its all about the attitude that I have. I just got home, but in about an hour I am going to have to take Justin to work. Then home to sleep, work at 7:30 tomorrow morning and then massages after that. It is almost ridiculous how much I am gone, but I really try to work as much time in with Malcolm as possible. I just want our own house though.

long tiring day

Today I woke up at about 7, went to Delores' house and made her breakfast and what not. We hung out until about 11:30. She is so easy to talk to and get along with. Very wonderful. Came home ate lunch watched Biggest Loser played with Malcolm a little bit and then had a massage with a lady that I work with's sister. She was one of the sweetest people I have ever met. I was very nervous about this massage. But overall I think it went well. I am now sitting at home exhausted. I am waiting on dinner to be done, it's 10:40 and I'm waiting on dinner. Excellent! I hopefully get to sleep in tomorrow. Unless Justin doesnt let me. Then I have Kingston for a couple hours. Well this was short just a quick update.

Wrinkly fingers

It has been quite some time since I last post... logged in yes but posted no... I have been quite busy lately. I got another job taking care of an elderly lady 3 days a week. So yeah I've added more to my plate. I stopped working out and watching what I ate for a couple weeks, and I felt like total crap. So I really need to get back on this and not look back. I always talk about getting back on, but I dont understand why I get off in the first place. Is it because of one really bad day? Is it because I was really hungry one day? Is it because of that craving? Or is it because of a void I'm trying to fill, that food does such an excellent job of doing. Whatever it is I need to figure out. And just say screw it. Screw the feelings of emptiness. I will be okay I don't need to eat to feel better. So far today I had oatmeal for breakfast, yogurt with fruit for snack and cauliflower pizza for lunch. I feel really nauseous (spelling??) right now for some reason. It's like I'm hungry but if I eat something I might puke. Not a good feeling at all. I don't know if it is because of the crap I've been eating lately or what.

I got the bodybugg in, according to it I should be burning 3350 calories a day naturally. So to lose 2 lbs in a week I can eat 2350 calories a day and still lose weight. However, when I plug my body bugg in it doesnt calculate that I am burning 3350 calories a day. I wonder if thats accurate? I was logging my food for a little while but then I switched it over to doing it on the body bugg. The calories for food on that website arent very accurate so I'm going back to sparkpeople.

Well, I think that's all for the day, I guess... smooches